today

I spent a lot of time in bed today. I didn't wake up until 11:20, and that was only because Bob text messaged me and asked if I was up yet. I had a huge to do list, and I did manage to finish most of it (with a little help from bob). I did all the dishes, swept the kitchen, cleaned off the tables, and folded the clean laundry. I also found time to make the cookies that someone gave me about 3 weeks ago. They were oatmeal chocolate chip cranberry. They turned out perfect and they tasted so good that after my delicious and nutritious lunch I had 4...with a big glass of milk, which is good for me! We went out to the goodwill store to try to find some super cheap shorts for me to wear to the beach, but instead we got some shorts for Bob (which he really needs, he only has 2 pairs) and a new shirt for Bob (which he really needs because some of his shirts are old and ragged, but he insists on keeping them around...I figure if he has something nice to wear then he won't wear the old stuff), and a bike for Kyle. Ok, the bike was only $15 and it was in pretty good condition except the tires. After that we went to another thrift store where I did find a cute jumper that was only $4!!! At some point I will post pictures of me in FATernity clothes, but I'll have to find a time when Bob wants to take the pics and I want to change clothes about 3 zillion times.

I'm still working on my water for the day. I have had 2 glasses of water, 1.5 glasses of milk, and 1 glass of juice. I'm not sure if the juice counts for water, but if it does then I am halfway to my goal. I just looked this up:

"Many fruits and vegetables — such as watermelon and cucumbers — are nearly 100 percent water by weight. Beverages such as milk and juice are also comprised mostly of water. Even beer, wine and caffeinated beverages such as coffee, tea or soda can contribute, but these should not be a major portion of your daily total fluid intake. Water is one of your best bets because it's calorie-free, inexpensive and readily available."

I have also read though, that soda and things like that cause you to urinate more often therefore losing more fluid than you would gain from it. However, I like that you can count some foods as fluid intake. So when I ate that big salad that was made with iceburg lettuce, even though it had to nutritional value, the lettuce counted toward my water for the day. That makes life easier.

"If you drink water from a bottle, thoroughly clean or replace the bottle often. Refill only bottles that are designed for reuse."

So don't reuse those Aquafina bottles! (the plastic actually breaks down and releases chemicals into your water!)

July 30th...

Cindy, Bob and I got together one evening to make my baby shower invitations. We stamped and stickered and wrote, and Bob made some very lovely bows. I addressed all the envelopes and off they went, into the mail. I took one to work and posted it for everyone that works there. Almost as soon as I did one of the saleswomen came into the office and told me that I cannot have my baby shower on the same day as her birthday party. How was I supposed to know that she was having a party? First of all, I don't know her that well so I certainly don't know when her birthday is. Second, she didn't invite me, nor did she post an invitation. It's not that I don't care if she comes, I don't...It's just the fact that she TOLD me that I can't have a party that day because she already was. Hmph! So anyway, the place is booked, the deposit is paid and I'm having my darn party whether she likes it or not!

I've been exercising more regularly lately, and eating like a mad person too. We spent about an hour down at the pool yesterday swimming around and having a grand time. We've also been trying to walk in the evenings. I have been eating more, but it's all good stuff, I promise. Ok, so maybe not ALL good stuff, but I only have a few little tiny scoops of ice cream every night. It helps get the icky vitamin taste out of my mouth before I have to go to bed. I still need to work on drinking more water, but I've worked out a plan for that. I'm taking two bottles of water to work with me every day (1 liter each) and I will drink 2 liters while I'm at home. I usually don't have a problem with drinking it at work, but carrying a cup around the house is a bother. I've switched to a sports bottle for home.

I've gained 3 more pounds! I think 3...I weight 127.5 now. I definitely have a noticeable belly, and I've started wearing a few of the maternity things I've acquired. I'm still too small for some, but I've been wearing maternity shirts with my RTG vests to work instead of the regular ugly shirts. It's very exciting!

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!

To my wonderful husband, who will be the best father ever! The raisin and I love you so much!

blocks!

I made this without a pattern, which of course is not that hard. I intend to make more, in different colours. This one wasn't quite finished because it's not stuffed, and I ran out of pink yarn to finish stitching it closed. I think they're fun! Oh, disregard the MESS on my desk.
 

This weekend...

We went to WV this weekend. We had a good time visiting Bob's sisters and their families. We made a quick visit to his grandparents. What I did not enjoy was seeing someone take advantage of, manipulate, and then turn their back on their family. Not because I feel bad for that person, she made her choice with full knowledge of the consequences. I feel bad for those who got hurt...again.
I did realize, though, how lucky I am to have the family that I have. My mother and my sisters have always been there, helping each other through rough times and celebrating the good times. Even the extended family has always had the best intentions, even if they were not communicated in a loving, understanding manner. It's good to know that there's always someone there to look out for you.

On a lighter note, the raisin has been moving around so much. It feels like he's jumping up and down! Before it's been little jabs, but now it feels like he's ramming his whole body into me. My belly's getting bigger, too. At least, I think it is. I haven't measured but it feels heavier when I walk and it's round.
I finished all my flower washcloths and started on a new project. I'm not telling what it is yet, but hopefully I will have pictures tomorrow. I almost finished the first one yesterday, but I need a few more things to complete it.

my dream...

I was in the kitchen and I was really hungry. I thought “I should have made those cookies from that jar” that would have taken too long at that point, so I opened the cupboard and found some little square Ghirardelli chocolates. They were in a red wrapper. I took one out, but there was something written on the back. I can’t remember what it said. Someone then told me that I couldn’t eat it because they were someone else’s. I threw the half opened chocolate back into the canister and went into the living room. My mom was in there. I looked out the window and saw a tornado coming toward the house. As it got closer it was 2, and then 4. They all came around the house to the front, and I shut the front door and was leaning with my back against it, trying to hold it closed. My mom came and sat on the sofa next to the door. The door started being sucked outward, so I stepped away from it. At that point the door opened and my mom got sucked out into the tornado.

When I woke up, I almost called my mom to make sure she was ok, but it was 3am. I'm not sure she would have appreciated it. Since then I went to www.dreammoods.com to see what the important parts of the dream meant. Here's what I found out:

To dream that you are hungry signifies a feeling of unfulfilment in some area of your life. You may be starving for recognition, power, sex, wealth, or fame. You are longing to achieve something that you have desired for awhile.

To dream that you are baking cookies signifies feelings of optimism or an increase in productivity. You may also experience a rise in status (perhaps I should have been more optimistic??)

To see chocolate in your dream signifies self-reward. It also denotes that you may be indulging in too many excesses and need to practice some restraint.

To see several tornadoes in your dream, represent people around you who are prone to violent outbursts and shifting mood swings. It may also symbolize a volatile situation or relationship

To see your mother in your dream represents the nurturing aspect of your own character.


So in applying this to my life:

I feel as though the nuturing aspect of myself is being sucked out by the volitile relationships I have at work. I also feel as though all my hard work should be recognized, but has not been.
I also feel that I'm overindulging myself, and that my attitude is not as positive as it should be.

In conclusion:

I need to start exercising more and taking responsibility for things that need to be done.
I need to stop worrying about work since I won't be there much longer.



I had the last two days off and I have to say that i've started applying this conclusion. On Wednesday I, with the help of my sister (online), folded all the laundry (about 4 loads that had been laying around), cleaned the shower, made the bed, put away the clean dishes, organized the baby stuff that was EVERYWHERE, cleaned the stove and counters, and finished making my baby shower invitations. On Thursday I finished the baby sling I made for our friend whose baby was born in December, washed the dishes, made dinner, and started on another flower washcloth. I think I've done a lot in the last few days. I also made time to go out with our friends and take a nap. We also went to the grocery store and picked up a few things we'd been out of for a while (like milk). Today I have a very small to do list because I have to go to work at 1, but I've already done one of those things. Maybe if I can keep this up I won't have any more weird disturbing dreams.

ultrasound with label

 

ultrasound with label

 

ultrasound with label

 

project...

This is my latest crochet project. It's a washcloth. It took me about 4 tries to get it right the first time, but I've made 2 now and the second one was so quick! At some point I might try making one that is more than one colour, but for now this is all I've got.
 

in response...

I do find it hard to drink water, but not because I feel full. Most of the time I'm either comfortable or ravenous. I don't like to drink the water because it doesn't have any flavor! It's just cold and wet and plain...and sometimes not even cold. I do try to drink as much as I can at work though Yesterday I drank 2.5 Liters, today I only drank 1.

Speaking of being ravenous though, I'm off to Wendy's for a salad and a frosty. Yeah, I know I'm bad...I shouldn't be eating fast food. Oh well, I'm hungry!

dr's appt.

it's Friday, and our appointment was on Tuesday. Yeah, I know I should have updated sooner, but the visit was so short! We went in and I did my chart work and then we met with the midwife. She basically said everything was fine according to the ultrasound, measured my belly (84cm around, 32cm from pelvic bone to top of uterus), and listened to the raisin's heartbeat. That part kind of freaked me out because when she caught him (he likes to run away from the monitor thingy) his heartbeat was really slow! She listened for a minute or so and it got faster again, like normal. I got really worried though, until she said that sometimes that happens when the baby grabs the umbilical cord. He kind of cuts off his blood supply. that's NORMAL?? If she says so, I just wish he wouldn't do it when I'm listening. Then she told us we should go ahead and schedule our ultrasound. We were like "what?" and then she realized that she wasn't paying very much attention and looked over the results again. Next time I will have a glucose screening, which sounds like no fun at all. I have to get up and eat a protien filled breakfast BEFORE 7:45. My appt is at 9:45 and after they make me drink a cup of glucose (flavored, thank goodness) they will wait an hour and then stab my finger to take blood. I hate the finger stabbing!

Anyway, before our appt we took Jasper to get groomed. We didn't take him back to Petco because he was depressed for a few days after the last time we took him there and the fact that the stupid groomer lady was talking on the phone while she was trying to clip his nails. We took him to PetSmart, where they made him all nice and shiny and good smelling, and they even let us pick what colour of bandana he wanted to wear. Of course, Jasper picked green because that's his favorite colour.

We went to see the new X-Men movie too. It was pretty good, but I didn't think it was as good as the first two. There were some really good scenes, and some that could have been much better if someone had put a little more effort into it. Overall though, it was worth seeing.

Bob brought up the fact that we are lazy and need to exercise more. He's so right! I got up early (ok so it was 9) and took the dog for a walk (about 15 minutes) and then did my Mommy exercise video. Ok, well I only did half, but it's more than I've done for a while. If I ever get my work schedule for June I'm going to make sure I schedule time to go to the gym and walk. It's too hot out to walk most of the time, and when it's not then it's raining.
I also need to try harder to drink the amount of water the midwife recommended. I didn't drink any yesterday until about 9pm. Shame on me! Of course, after I drank 3 glasses of water between 9 and 11, I was up all night running to the bathroom. I guess I learned my lesson.

tap dancing

For the past few nights right when I go to bed the raisin has decided it's time to be awake and active. I lay on my right side, and he just tap dances all over where my belly touches the mattress. He hit me so hard the other night that it startled me and woke up poor Bob!

We got some CD's to play to him, they say it stimulates him and makes him smarter. Our next appointment is tomorrow and hopefully they will let us know more from the ultrasound. Speaking of which, no one can seem to make out what those pictures are, so I will label them and repost them at some point.

We've also started saving money for him. We haven't decided where to put it or anything, but we have some money set aside. Better to start early, the longer you save the more interest you earn. Hopefully in 18 years he'll have enough for college.

I weighed myself yesterday and I've gained 3 more pounds for a grand total of 124!! Hooray!

my latest project...

Since so many people are having babies, I've decided to do something simple for gifts. This is a washcloth I made. It only took me 4 hours while I was at work. (which means I was squeezing in working on it in between phone calls and helping salespeople) I think it turned out rather nicely, and with all the other cute little bath things that will be with it, it will be a wonderful gift. Everyone loves a clean baby! 

everyone else...

Everyone else I know who is pregnant is having a girl. We're having a boy.
Everyone else I know who is pregnant has a belly. I'm just starting to get one.
Everyone else I know who is pregnant seems to have it together. I feel so scattered!
Everyone else I know who is pregnant doesn't have to work. I have a job I can't stand.
Everyone else I know who is pregnant didn't get morning sickness. I was sick for 1.5 months.

Why is it that I can never be like anyone else?! Not that I'm not thrilled about having a boy, because I am...and everyone says I'm lucky to still be able to wear my regular clothes at 5 months. But I want to buy maternity clothes! I want everyone to be able to tell that I'm pregnant! I want to be able to remember where I left my keys or if I locked the door or where i ate lunch. I want to be able to do anything I want all day because I don't have to go punch a clock for 8 hours and deal with people who, after working there for years, still don't know how to do their job. I want to have time for my craft projects and exercise and playing with my dog and my husband. I don't want to have to watch everything I eat because anything remotely spicy makes me sick. I want to go camping and fishing and hiking and do all those things without being out of breath or tired. I want to sleep all night without having to get up 5 times to go to the bathroom. I want to sleep laying on my stomach!

That's my rant, and I'm sticking to it.

it could be the raisin...

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random ranting

I forgot to mention that I had gained 2 more pounds! I also measured my belly again yesterday and it is 36 inches now! I guess it's growing even if it's so gradual that I can't tell since I look at it every day.

Last night we went to bed and I was laying there trying to go to sleep, but the raisin wanted to be awake and all active. He was punching me really hard! I had my hands over my belly and I could feel it. He did it a few times and finally I decided that if I could feel it then so could Bob, and if he hit me one more time I'd nudge Bob, Well, he did so I grabbed Bob's hand and put it on my belly. Almost as soon as I did he hit again, but Bob said he didn't feel it. I pointed to where the raisin was hitting, and the next his was so hard it made me jump! Bob definately felt that one! He left his hand there for a little while, all the time with the raisin punching away. Finally the raisin calmed down and Bob rolled over to go to sleep. He didn't act very excited, but I thought it was really cool that Bob can feel him now too.

Someone at work loaned us one of those monitor things that you can use to listen to and talk to the baby. I tried it a few times, but I haven't really heard anything yet. I think it will be a week or so before we can hear the heartbeat with it anyway.

Other than that, everything is ok. Work still sucks though. We are trying to hire 2 new people, which is going well. They sent the two I liked the best for background checks and drug tests. Hopefully, they will be able to start before Memorial Day. Otherwise we will only have 3 people working Memorial Day Saturday, which seems ridiculous to me. Also, the manager and the office manager and I had all discussed that we should put the new people on with one person so they don't hear 4 different ways to do the same thing and get confused. I offered to train them both because I have done most of the training in the past and the people I've trained have turned out to be really good. The manager changed the schedule for the last week of May to have two openers and one closer every day. What sense does that make!?!? Especially since 3 of those days I will be opening and if you add 2 new people to my schedule then that's 4 openers and one closer. DOESN'T ANYONE LISTEN TO ME!? Overall it's very frustrating. Also, the week they are starting (hopefully) is the week the office manager is on vacation. That would mean that training the new people should be my responsibility anyway since I'm the assistant office manager.

Oh well, only a few more months and I won't have to worry about it anymore!! YAY!!!

ultrasound...

This one is the hand, you can see it right in the middle there. The ultrasound tech said he has all the necessary parts. We saw his little beating heart with all 4 chambers. She checked out his spine and it looked good, and somehow she could tell he didn't have a cleft lip. She took a lot of measurements, we were in there for a little while. He waved at us (thus the hand picture) and we saw his little legs kicking around, too. He's laying sideways with his head to my left and his feet to my right. I guess that explains why I feel most of the movement on the right side. He was very active, he moved all over while she was scanning him. I guess I would too if someone was squishing my already cramped living space! Overall though he's healthy and that's one less thing to worry about. Now if I could just get rid of this darned indigestion! 

ultrasound...

This one is confirmation of a definite BOY. The ultrasound tech said he wasn't shy at all!!
 

ultrasound...

This is a picture of the baby's face, you can see his eyebrow ridge, nose, and chin.